Sigh

Life as it is right now...

-mad at judgmental friends, i thought friends wouldn't judge each other so much?
-currently in dilemma about prom GG. who to ask?
-the girl i like probably doesn't like me... que lastima.
-i feel like i'm out of the loop with everything. Looking at other people's facebooks and stuff, everyone is so active writing on walls and stuff, and I'm just really bad at keeping up with that stuff.... maybe because i'm lazy? or i don't care about the people i'm talking to? not sure. I'm jsut out of the loop because everyone is getting to know each other and i'm not really progressing forward with meeting new people and getting myself out there... maybe because I'm too shy when I first meet someone? I feel awkward. hmmm I should jsut be myself right? right. harhahrhar. GG insecurities
-Need to commit more to flock
-Fashion show is coming up... I'm worried, but i think things will work out. I've been irritable lately because i haven't been sleeping well because i haven't been prioritizing.
-After show I'll go to thursday practices for flock
-Join FEDs
-Make VSUL'D
-need to bring grades up, i really neeed to place more emphasis on school, and develop better habits
-moved rooms into the guest room. It's smaller
-i think i need to live more, and just be myself, instead of being so critical of myself all the time...
-which is a critical statement
-need to stop saying GG.
-other things i'm forgetting, but may come out later...

this felt strangely good o_O i guess i can see the appeal to blogging now... hahahhaa

darn! i wish the girl i like would like me :(! maybe she does. maybe i should jsut go for it. too bad i'm a wimp! hahahaha. i'm going to try to create more relationships! EFFORT COUNTS!

UGH.

I dissapoint myself. When did I become such a bad listener? I'm forcing it. I feel fake. blah. How to fix this new problem? Maybe actually acre about people... GG.

pet peeve

people who present things badly. if you have something to say to someone, you can be blunt. But don't be rude, and don't get their back up. It'll just make the situation worse if they're not mature enough to figure out that thats not what you mean to do. But seriously? I can't be honest anymore, i'm going inside. I'm going to will this shit. I don't care if it's the wrong way. determination, determination,determination. become legendary.

New

Catharsis.

I've decided to have ONE thing i wan work on at a time.
But i'll let myself go and do two things
One is physical, the other more on the emotional side.

This year I want to focus mainly on -> staying organized and managing my time well.
I also want to focus on -> becoming a better listener and keeping in contact with friends (use facebook!)

Other things i want to work on!
-Read more books
-Watch more movies
-Work on conversing better
-Become a better leader
-Take advantage of oppurtunities
-Live it up!
-Never say Never
-Always be happy
-Live well, Laugh often, and Love much
-Experience as many things as I can
-Never get discouraged
-Play to people's strengths
-Think of more things to work on!

Just something for those that check

I like quotations. And I ues them all the time.
Here's one that I'm proud of.

"If the window of oppurtunity closes on you, break it!"
-Matthew Nguyen

still needs some more thought to be put into it/edited ^___^!