Sigh

Life as it is right now...

-mad at judgmental friends, i thought friends wouldn't judge each other so much?
-currently in dilemma about prom GG. who to ask?
-the girl i like probably doesn't like me... que lastima.
-i feel like i'm out of the loop with everything. Looking at other people's facebooks and stuff, everyone is so active writing on walls and stuff, and I'm just really bad at keeping up with that stuff.... maybe because i'm lazy? or i don't care about the people i'm talking to? not sure. I'm jsut out of the loop because everyone is getting to know each other and i'm not really progressing forward with meeting new people and getting myself out there... maybe because I'm too shy when I first meet someone? I feel awkward. hmmm I should jsut be myself right? right. harhahrhar. GG insecurities
-Need to commit more to flock
-Fashion show is coming up... I'm worried, but i think things will work out. I've been irritable lately because i haven't been sleeping well because i haven't been prioritizing.
-After show I'll go to thursday practices for flock
-Join FEDs
-Make VSUL'D
-need to bring grades up, i really neeed to place more emphasis on school, and develop better habits
-moved rooms into the guest room. It's smaller
-i think i need to live more, and just be myself, instead of being so critical of myself all the time...
-which is a critical statement
-need to stop saying GG.
-other things i'm forgetting, but may come out later...

this felt strangely good o_O i guess i can see the appeal to blogging now... hahahhaa

darn! i wish the girl i like would like me :(! maybe she does. maybe i should jsut go for it. too bad i'm a wimp! hahahaha. i'm going to try to create more relationships! EFFORT COUNTS!