someteengs.

i guess when you're going through a hard time, you don't know how to make yourself feel better...

i think for me, its good to just...sleep. sometimes.

College

Depressing! I feel dissapointed, my unwillingness to regret is battling my sadness and dissapointment in myself.

I didn't put my best effort into academics, which is why I'm second-guessing myself now.

I guess this is where i actually disagree with Rent...blasphemous, i know.

But i mean, to forget regret, isn't that running away from the problem? I guess it's unexplained or implied that you have to face it first? to better yourself, learn from the mistake. that's when you can really forget about it, after you've come to terms with it, and accepted your responsibility. delayed gratification is such a difficult concept... well, no its not, it's just hard to do given all the temptations that we are given through our lives. bleh.

adapt, improvise, overcome, right?

i hope its okay to be weak sometimes.

Life...

Can be lonely...sometimes.

Hiding from what...?

From facing your failure,
facing your loneliness
facing the fact you live a lie.
Yes, you live a lie tell you why
you're always preaching not to be numb
when that's how you thrive
you pretend to create and observe
when you really detach
from feeling alive.

you never know what you've got until its gone.
it's weird.
In 8th grade, i thought i wouldn't miss anyone. And I don't. But during the time, i did. for a while.
Now i feel that i've met people important enough to me, unique enough, that i might actually miss them. haha. strange, this emotion.

detached, much?

Story Time!

Chapter 1 - Courage.
There was this boy. He never had the courage to do anything he wanted to do. He would wait around after school and never talk to any girls, because he was so scared of rejection. He didn't try to approach people unless they were sad. He just wanted people to come to him. But one day he realized that if he kept this up his whole life, he would never get anywhere. He wouldn't get in any relationships, romantic or not. And the ones that mattered would be the ones he really had to try. One day, this boy was in the library. He had booked a room on the 6th floor. However, when he arrived at the room, there was already someone inside it. One of his friends decided to talk to the guys about it. They were cool with it, and moved rooms. Later that night, the boy asked himself why he didn't say anything to those guys? Why was he afraid of confrontation? Why would he always hold himself back by not doing what he really wanted to do, because he was afraid of an "awkward situation"? or rejection? It was because he was weak. However, he realized that, with enough will and effort, even a weak person can become strong. He decided that the next time he had an opportunity, he would take it. The next day, the boy stuck around a while after school. He said hi to some people, and talked a lot with this cute girl he was interested in. It wasn't much. But that night, as he lay in bed, he found that he could reflect upon that day with no regrets.

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