Friendship

2. So, the question of the moment is, "Why did you ask PATRICK to do the talk on friendship?"
WHY!? BECAUSE I WANT TO BITCHES. YOU GUYS DON"T GET A SAY! JK. :)!
okay lazy, will do this later. x]

Moving On

Attempt at eloquence in writing.

So, I've been listening to the Such Great Heights Cover by AJ Rafael and Jess Delgado. So good! x]]
Anyways, today I was looking through facebook, since I can now. And I was going around, when I stumbled upon one of my friends from middle school, Samantha Jackson. Interestingly, me and her weren't particularly close in middle school, but I ended up looking through her pictures (stalker, much?) and it made me kind of think. About how I don't really keep in contact with her (or any other of my middle school friends) anymore. Kind of depressing, cuz, I've had this block about keepipng in contact with people. I guess it's just that i'm independent? or perhaps my deep rooted inability to really care about what other people are doing ^____^;. I think i'm just too lazy or don't care enough about people to talk to them. So! if I im you or call you or something, it's me putting out an effort. haha. But at the same time, I feel like I'm going to miss all the bonds that I've created in the last year while at Bellarmine. Kinda funky that things don't turn up until it's the end right? I guess that's just how it is. But i wonder if I'll be keeping in touch with everyone i met this year. It makes me sad thinking about it. The memories, but what I think really gets me is the acceptance. I mean, all my life, especially middle school and the early years at Bellarmine, I never really fit in anywhere. Middle school, I was asian... xD not that it matters right? No one really looks at you the same way. Part of the reason why I'm hesitant to pick LMU. And I guess fear really held me back in high school, I just didn't fit in. But now that I do find people that accept me, and do ask me to hang out, it's kind of like i'm leaving too soon. I mean, I like to explore, but it still is nice to have somewhere to go back to. Anywho, I lost my train of thought. x] Oh wait found it! (So much for eloquence, right?) anyways, I think part of the reason that I'm not really into Van Nghe anymore is because of the fact that I never hang out with them anymore. I mean, they always go out together, but i'm never invited. so, it kinda sucks, you know? And why I like Lowell so much? He always includes me. haha! anyways, I have to keep that in mind when I do things, right? :D!

What I learned from Scrubs today: Go the Extra Mile, and It'll be worth it.
Be Honest, and things'll work out.

Dream

So i'm sick. And i realized that i want my significant other to be able to take care of me, since i'm so independent... xD too lazy to explain.

anyways, i had this dream.
I went to ND (to ask Candianne to Prom) and then I met this girl Katherine. And so, I was like o_o so we talked abotu Prom and about Candianne, and then I end up going something like, "Well, do YOU want to go to prom with me?" and she said yes! but the bad part was, I realized that i still wanted to ask Candianne, so i was like UHHH! and then I want to go talk to Katherine, and she was like, "I don't think its a good idea for us to go together" because she knew that someone else wanted me to ask them (I remember thinking it was Candianne). So then, we all go to the pool, and i'm swimmming along with everyone in VSU and FSA, (don't remember specifics) and then I go up to Candianne and hug her (in the pool) and i go, Candianne, will you go to prom with me? and she pushes me away and says "No. Go Away, Jerk!" yeah...burn, right... :(! then i woke up, but i thought it was real still! so i felt really shitty. then i fell back asleep and i get a text message from Nick Nguyen going, "Man, everyone at ND thinks you're a jerk" or something like that. xD

So that dream totally compounded my insecurities... But i'm glad it was a dream. O_O! talk about epic sad dream. xD

Hohum

Nothing super eventful happened today, except I replied back to all my e-mails! yay!
need to call John about lan heads tomorrow, and need to call linh about prom stuff...
NEED to find someone to ask to prom!
need to bring up grades!
hardworkhardworkhardworkhardwork

ROCKLEE WILL BEAT NEJI! >:O!!!!!!

it's only when you have something to prove, do you excel. ;D!